Creaky old me

I’ve been missing a while now.

Not because I’ve been too busy, or too lazy, or too suddenly brilliant at running that I’ve discovered the secret of speed and don’t care to share.

No, I’ve been avoiding you all.

I could say that I’ve been coming to terms with a bitter truth. Because there is a bitter truth to be told. Yes, partially that is true, but i could have written this weeks ago. I’ve been avoiding.

Back late last year my sports physio suggested i get X-rays on my hip as his weekly pummelling, prodding, stretching and bending efforts weren’t making great progress on my stiff leg and less than flexible hip joint. Here’s why; I have early onset osteoarthritis.

Lots of sulk-triggers to go at here:

  • I’m getting older – arthritis, you what? I’m not 50 yet. Arthritis is for old people, right?
  • I’ll never run again *dramatically throws back of hand against forehead and gaze stoically into the distance, lip trembling, noble chin tilted*
  • I am in pain and I’m sick of it.

When the doctor read me the x-ray results I cried. Then apologised for crying and then cried some more. “I don’t know why I’m crying,” I whimpered through the tears. Frankly, the fact she was about 25 and right then, at that moment, i wanted my body back at her age – it really wasn’t helping. But most of the reasons I was ploughing my way through her tissues are listed above. “I’m not saying you can never run again,” she added. This helped; i can’t stand being told what to do by authority figures who haven’t earned my respect, and as for young doctors…? The thought of her thinking I would never run again if she said so… and i was clear. To grossly misquote the divine Scarlett O’hara:

‘I’ m going to live through this and when it’s all over,Ā I WILL run again.’

That was October… since then I’ve discovered some perspective and some facts. (Scarlett will be pleased):

  • anyone can get arthritis and age isn’t a barrier.
  • I’m not alone, there’s about 10 million of us in the UK
  • I may run again, but I will have to be patient.

So, thought it was about time I got back on the horse again and let you know where I was at.

Perhaps i should start a link about getting to grips with arthritis and leave a link here. What do you think?

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11 thoughts on “Creaky old me

  1. Hope you get back to running soon! Glad to hear that you are fine otherwise! I wonder if that might be my problem as well. I am not running long distances at the moment and that is helping and I changed to Brooks Pure Flow shoes and that helped as well! I seem to run differently in them. Glad you are back on your blog. I have neglected mine!

    • Hi, Lisa! Glad you’re running. I’d get checked over, though, if you’re struggling. People to run, well into their 70s and 80s with arthritis. I just need to heal my body more before I venture out, I think.

      • Take care of yourself. I was sick for the whole month of October with Flu, that turned into sinus infection and then a round of hives! Don’t know why that happened! So needless to say I ended up with a lot of rest which definitely helped my thigh and hip. Pulling things back together slowly!

  2. To paraphrase Winston, “You shall never surrender!” I hope that you find something that works. There is so much information on the web these days, some of it even from reliable sources. I’m sure there are people out there who have gone through what you are going through and can give you some helpful info and insight.

    • Everyone’s experience of arthritis is different apparently. Some people get lots of pain with early arthritis, some very little. I’m going for a natural approach to healing, which I’ll blog about at a later date.

      Thank you for your encouragement and Winston quote, inspiring stuff

  3. It’s so good to hear from you again! I’m sorry to hear about the arthritis though. Best wishes with your new struggle (I hope the major pain heals quickly and that you can get back to running comfortably soon). Good luck and welcome back to the blogging world!

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